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Thursday, December 28, 2017

Time to Prepare

I'm so excited!!! I finally know when I will start TTC. I can't believe I've actually made it to this point after waiting so long.

But let me back up a bit.

My ability to actually start TTC is mostly due to finally getting my own place. I found a great condo that was within my price range, all it needed was a little tlc, some elbow grease, and a bit of minor renovation. My parents and I have done most of the work ourselves to get it fixed up, and once the carpet is installed in January, I should be able to complete moving in! There will still be a few tasks that need doing, but hopefully nothing too major.

I hope to start TTC in earnest in April of 2018, though I might jump the gun and try one cycle in February. It all depends on what dates my cycle falls on because, with my work schedule, it really would be best to have a baby between January and October (maybe November). Of course, babies are never predictable with when they are going to show up, but at least I could say I tried to plan it well! Besides, it leaves me approximately 10 months for trying that still fit into my schedule, which is a pretty big window.

Having waited as long as I have, I'm so antsy to start NOW! I would love to try in January but with the condo renovations and still needing to move the bulk of my stuff, and carpet not coming for another two weeks, I just don't think January is in the cards.

However, I am excited to start gathering the things I need in order to be ready.

More on that later...

Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Catch-up

So, it's been a while.

One major reason I haven't blogged lately is because I had to get a new computer. My old one would overheat and shut itself off after about an hour of being on. That computer was nearly 10 years old, though, so it was time for a new one.

Ever since I got back from my vacation, I feel like I have been playing catch-up with every part of my life. Here are some updates:

My Business: I felt energized and refreshed while I was on vacation but when I got back, I felt like my stride and my motivation were broken (as far as my business was concerned). Before vacation, I was very close to getting one of my business ideas up and running and I was working on it every weekend. But my trip ended in early July and only now have I been able to re-motivate myself, though I still struggle with excuses.

My current excuse is that some of the fabric I'm using in these products bleeds in the wash onto lighter colored fabrics. I'm afraid it will ruin a few of my creations, so I have put off washing them. Because, you know, if I never wash them, they'll stay perfect forever, right? And I won't have wasted time and money on a few unsaleable pieces.

Housing: It's been almost a year since I officially started looking. I lost out on a third condo when my realtor didn't get back to me in time. It was a 3 bed/ 2 bath. Well within my price range with a nice little back yard. Needed a few cosmetic updates but nothing I couldn't handle. The only thing missing was a garage. I got an email from the real estate website that the place was under contract the same day I got an email from my realtor explaining how busy she was and sorry she couldn't get back to me sooner. She also looped in her protege to help me in the future.
My realtor also mentioned she had a condo coming up that was within my price range. I waited anxiously but when the listing was finally announced it turned out to be the ground floor unit directly below the second condo I lost out on. It was also priced $15,000 more than the upper unit that I had wanted. I thought long and hard but ultimately passed it up because there were too many cons.

This past week, I toured a former hotel-turned-condo complex. There were three condos, all with different layouts and different pros/cons. Unfortunately, the only one in my price range was a one-bedroom. All the rooms in it (bedroom, living room, bathroom) were adequately-sized, except for the kitchen - the one place where I need the most space (except for the whole needing a second bedroom thing). Also, there was no dishwasher (dealbreaker), parking was an added expense, laundry was shared, and the bedroom window looked out onto a shared inner walkway. There were beautiful views from the living room, though. And the building retains the charm of its fancy hotel glory days. Plus, it wasn't far from work. But I'm afraid the cons outweigh the pros on this one.
So, I've basically been twiddling my thumbs waiting for the right place to come along.

My Job: My boss was already contemplating retirement at the end of this year but this summer she found out she has cancer again. She is currently undergoing another round of chemotherapy and is expected to recover well. I have picked up the slack of bill-paying and I am thankful that she trained me on that before she got sick. It was still a learning curve, but I feel like I've settled into a routine now. I want to make things as simple for my boss as I can while she rests and recovers. So far, she's only had to come in to do paychecks.
This does, however, leave a giant question mark on my job future because she has not been able to work anything out with my coworker who was trying to buy the business from her. There is a very real possibility that, come January, I will be out of a job due to the business closing.


That's all for now. I will continue with my projects and update when I can!


Monday, May 1, 2017

A Day Late and A Dollar Short

I'm not cut out for the competition of buying a house in a seller's market. Unfortunately, that is what my town has become.

Houses and condos that fit my wishlist, and fall into my price range, seem to be snapped up within days of going on the market. Meanwhile, I am the kind of person who wants time to roll an idea around in my head, to picture myself in a place, to go through the pros and cons, and to think on it before I decide. This is a huge decision and a lot of money! I want to make sure I'm making the right choice.

This latest condo was not love at first sight but after thinking about it for a few days I realized it actually ticked a lot more boxes than I had originally thought. However, I was hesitant because I hadn't yet hit the savings goal that I had set for myself. By the time I'd made up my mind that I wanted to make an offer anyway...it was gone...just two days after I saw it.

Now, I've signed up for emails alerts when a house that fits my needs goes on the market.

*Cue the crickets* 

*Cue the tumbleweeds*

There's a whole lotta nothin' on the market right now and all I can do is sit and wait.

Sunday, April 2, 2017

Sunrise

I have taken a step forward. Not the step I spoke of previously. Not the business I was setting out to start, but another idea I had in mind. A business that is a much easier stepping stone.

It feels so good to actually be doing something. I no longer feel as though I'm wasting my weekends. Now, I just tell myself I'm going to my second job! I worked at it all day yesterday and by the end I felt like I'd really accomplished something.

I don't expect I'll be ready to launch until the beginning of May, maybe mid-April if I'm lucky, but I'm happy to just be working on it for now.


Wednesday, March 1, 2017

Frozen

I feel as though I am standing on the precipice of a chasm with one foot poised in the air, ready to take that leap of faith, and I cannot make myself move.

The business idea of mine has gone from a vague dream to a vague possibility to an OhMyGodIt'sNowOrNever scenario. I am physically sick to my stomach thinking about taking that leap of faith but also incredibly scared not to. I'll be so disappointed in myself if I don't.

Why is starting a business so bloody complicated?!?

I wish I had someone to hold my hand through the start-up process, telling me what step to take next, just until everything is ready to go. By that point I think I could do it on my own.

I wish I had a cheerleader who was encouraging, supportive, ready and willing to help me bring this idea to fruition. I am floundering in a sea of self doubt.

I just plain wish I had more confidence in myself and a little less of the abundance of caution and paralyzing worry that plague me.